Don't be afraid of the things you can't see...

littleredgeisha @ 2007-01-16T19:56:00

2007-01-17T00:57:40Z

i miss the 90s grunge era. im gonna bring it back..fuck this sexy bullshit.

littleredgeisha @ 2007-01-09T02:31:00

2007-01-09T07:32:30Z

things are going good, with everything right now.

thank god.

littleredgeisha @ 2006-11-15T03:03:00

2006-11-15T08:03:12Z

I live at the end of a 5 and 1/2 minute hallway
But as far as I can see you are still miles from me
In your doorway
And oh by the way
When the landlord came today
He measured everything
I knew he'd get it wrong
But I just played along
'Cause I was hoping that would solve it all
But there's only so far I can go
When you're living in a hallway that keeps growing
I think to myself
5 more minutes and I'll be there
Inside your door
But there's more to this story
Than I have exposed
There are words made of letters
Unwritten
And yes I forgive you
For leading me on
You can think of it like this
When you can't resist
I'm in your hallway standing on a cliff
And just when I think I've found the trick
I'm tumbling
Like an echo
'Cause there's only so far I can go
When you're living in a hallway that keeps growing
I think to myself
30 seconds and I'll be there
Daughter:
You never listen to me
Father:
We cannot really experiment with love as freely as we wish
It is really a much more complicated topic

littleredgeisha @ 2006-11-02T13:04:00

2006-11-02T18:04:50Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Low
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Low
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	Low
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	Low
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Low
Dependent Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Low
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horrorful halloween

2006-11-02T06:39:06Z

thanks to everyone who came out for my halloween party! it was a good time! pics are posted on a blog on my myspace for you guys to take a gander! hope everyone had a fabulous halloween!

update.

2006-10-05T02:57:40Z

so besides working and trying to find a second job...

my mom's birthday is friday, and tomorrow my cousin is having her first baby..its a girl and im so excited for her.

i went to my friend's wake on monday and as depressing as it was, the state he was in, im glad hes now finally at peace.

all the money i make goes to car insurance and my cell phone bill, so money has been extremely tight.

i hope i find a second job soon.

"you can only do for yourself, no one else will do for you"

so i rather not complain and whine and bitch how anything or everything might stink, but rather enjoy what i have and the company i am within and appreciate everything. for when you start to take certain things for granted they can blow up in your face.

p.s. i was so happy to meet imperative reaction! haha.

beautiful

2006-09-25T20:42:24Z

it is absolutely beautiful outside. i wish the weather was like this everyday! wow i hate country music. ok bye!

Wicked

2006-09-07T04:06:38Z

I just got back from seeing my 1st Broadway play..WICKED! It was so amazing. I loved it!! The set and the costumes and the singing was so beautiful. I recommend you all to go see it. Next i'm hoping to see Evil Dead the musical. I was worried i'd be bored by all the singing, but honestly it wasnt what i expected, it was so fantastic.

Im loving the new job, working two jobs isnt that bad either..it will literally pay off in the end.

I'm hoping my *buddy* comes down next weekend too. My buddy is seriously great.

Things are going well right now, and im happy. I hope things only get better from here.

p.s. THERE WERE FLYING MONKEYS!!!! =)

littleredgeisha @ 2006-08-23T13:14:00

2006-08-23T17:15:02Z

this weekend.

2006-08-06T20:53:53Z

I had one of the best weekends ever!

just felt like mentioning it.

hmph

2006-07-25T17:37:07Z

i had no idea.

random shit has been happening.

it's a lot to take it, but i am accepting it one by one.

taking it all at face value for what each thing is actually worth.

work-school-people-life

anyhow..read this..i love it.

HOW TO STAY YOUNG

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and
height. Let the
doctors worry about them. That is why you pay " them " .

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening,
whatever Never let the brain idle. " An idle mind is the devil's
workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who
is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love, Whether it's family, pets,
keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is un stable,
improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next
county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the
moments that take our breath away.

Clerks 2

2006-07-24T01:47:18Z

is one of the funniest movies i've ever seen. ever. i love it. im def gonna go again to see it.

a life lesson.

2006-07-21T19:00:35Z

my grandma always taught me to never be afraid to say how i feel.

that made me a strong person, im not afraid.

I'm a pretty much straight-forward, blunt person.

Because, no one wants to hear a lie.

You can't build any foundation on a lie.

I want to surround myself in truth.

so you tell me, what the FUCK is so hard about just coming out and saying what you want to.

immaturity is really disgusting.

contagious.

2006-07-21T18:52:24Z

theres apparently an epidemic of assholeness going around.

wear some gloves. those little booty covers that go over your shoes aren't a bad idea either.

just want to make you safe.

cause i'm that kind of girl.

soo...

2006-07-20T06:28:41Z

i've learnt to have more faith in myself. go with my gut instinct, because in the end, you won't let yourself down.

i never regret anything, and as you grow older you realize it's best not to.

you really do learn from mistakes.

when your in any kind of situation, you look back and can compare from other experiences you've had in your life.

you can know what you want, what you don't want..in other words what's good for you and what isn't.

that alone has made me a better person.

not that im any less of a caring person, i'm just not going to be as tolerable now as when i was 18.

anyhow, i had a fun filled day.

now i'm tired, sore from working out, and just all around blah.

i'm going to bed. wish you all a g'night.

diet

2006-07-17T23:03:15Z

i just started a diet today.

for dinner i just made grilled chicken and a salad.

now im going to take a butt n gut class with julia.

should be outrageous!

picture post

2006-07-17T17:46:00Z

just because i feel like it.

no news is good news..however

2006-07-17T02:25:10Z

when you find out something quite amusing.

thats always good too.

words.

2006-07-15T07:44:02Z

words are nice.
being nice gets you nowhere.
action shows.
being active gets you somewhere.

sometimes I, even confuse myself.

the most thoughtful thing that one can do for another is be considerate.

its sweet, caring and not hard to do.

just felt like sharing.

now im going to bed.

rah rah rah

2006-07-07T03:40:15Z

So 4th of July was fun. Went to Klings, hung with friends, saw some fireworks..the usual hoorah. Joe left for tampa yesterday and wont be back till around the holidays =(. Scott is coming home sunday!! Thank goodness..9 days is a long time to be away. I saw Click last night with Mike. It was awesome! Def a new favorite of mine. Everytime Walken opens his mouth i can't help but hysterically laugh. I love him like nobodys business. Work is going good, in like 2 months i'll have full medical and dental coverage..isnt that exciting hehe. Applying for a second job currently. I cant wait to get a laptop and get rid of my pc. It will save so much space and i need a new computer anyhow. Im supposed to see my friends Guns N' Roses cover band in the city tomorrow night..im pretty excited about that! I have work sat night but then after that i'll see pol and have a girl's night out =) i want to go to Atlantic City next month..when do you suppose it will be open again? Does anyone know a good mini like weekend vacation spot to go to thats not terribly far away but yet really relaxing and fun at the same time? I need to get away..if only for a few days.

littleredgeisha @ 2006-06-14T19:41:00

2006-06-14T23:47:03Z

I start my job the beginning of next month. Ive been training. Its not bad.

Last night was cool..we go to danielle's aunts house..thinking its just a typical house..but no we get to this gated community and pull up to a mansion with the water in the back. wtf? lol

I wouldnt get off the massage chair..it was great. i want one now. i will have one.

the strong pina colada scott made was great..i kept pouring rum in it lol.

scrabble is now a necessity at every house get together. XI will not be a word used again!

This week is going by fast, just as every other week. i feel like nothing can stand still.

This morning there was a huge fire a few blocks from my house, a 79 yr old was burned badly and the surrounding houses received damage as well. The whole house like blew up i saw it on the news this morning..ridiuclous! im glad no one was killed..they dont know what caused it yet..but im going to follow it and find out.

Embrace Me

2006-06-14T23:39:26Z

There's a coldness in the air
but i don't care....
(Embrace me...surround me)

Travelling somewhere
could be anywhere
there's a coldness in the air
but i don't care
we drift deeper
life goes on
we drift deeper
into the sound

(Embrace me...surround me.. as the rush..)

Travelling somewhere
could be anywhere
there's a coldness in the air
yeah but i don't care
we drift deeper into the song
life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound
feeling strong

so bring it on so bring it onnnn
we drift deeper into the song
life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound
feeling strong
so bring it on so bring it onnnn
we drift deeper........

we drift deeper life goes on
we drift deeper drift deeper
we drift deeper into the song
life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound
feeling strong
so bring it on so bring it onnnn
we drift deeper into the song
life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound
feeling strong
so bring it on so bring it onnnn

embrace me .. surround me
as the rush comes [ x 8 ]

as the rush comes
as the rush comes
as the rush comes...

red

2006-06-12T13:43:11Z

This weekend saved my life. ha!

I had about a total of 6-7 hours of sleep this weekend. Plus im sunburnt and itchy from it. We had a garage sale, and i made enough money to pay off the majority of my bills combined. Plus it helped me to get up early now. I woke up at 9am today and im ok. For most of you that know me, know im quite the night owl. I went to bed at 12 last night with no problem. So i'm happy about that, considering at my recent new job i'll have to get up for some early shifts.

I'm going to pay off bills today, see my grandparents, get my car inspected..then possibly head out to suffolk to help Brian paint his new house if i make it.

Tomorrow i go fill out paperwork at the new place.

This sat im going to see nin/bauhaus. im very excited! FINALLY i get to see NIN perform..the past two times he cancelled one show and the other i got really sick.

Sometimes I hate writing in this journal because, i never know how to end it..

so i'll leave you with this..

never judge a book by its cover..

i know its old and cliche, but oh how true...and how i still enjoy that saying.

axl<3penny

2006-05-19T10:01:01Z

i hung out with axl rose..that is all.

random

2006-05-10T18:28:26Z

its amazing how a clean room can make you feel 10x happier.